Work is extremely stressful yet strangely entertaining. Though screwing up isn't really nice because i hate to get caught in an awkward situation, but when you actually get things right it feels good because you know that you did something good and it didn't take you long to understand the procedure.

And thanks to my 10,000 year old pair of shoes that i haven't worn since 2.1, i got two blisters today and had to wear my shoes as though they were slip-on's.

Still getting the hang of the drinks menu. probably try to take orders tomorrow once i figure out what to do with them.

I love my job. Once i get the hang of things it might even get better because my colleagues are a bunch of nice people.

LIST OF THINGS TO BUY WITH MY PAY

• Ipod Classic :DDDDDD


• Pair of Levis Black Jeans( can't stand wearing such formal attire to work )


• Black pair of sneakers ( same reason as the above )


• More Clothes :D

I CAN'T WAIT FOR PAY DAY!

MATCHAZUKI!( come down to TCC if you want to find out what that is xD )



You know, i actually thought of starting a journal rather than continue putting stuff on this blog. Well the difference between a blog and a journal is that you're the only one going to be reading it and you can say things that no one else has to see. Well that is of course if nobody steals a peek at it.

I realise that i prefer being in a relationship than being single. Firstly, when you do things together it's always just you and your other half. There's no extra person there to make you feel left out if the subject their talking about doesn't seem to appeal to you or is of no interest to you.

I actually miss being in a relationship. Damn. Well i guess i really don't appreciate things until their gone.



Sometimes you feel that maybe someone will be better off without you in their lives. Sometimes you tend to think, that someone doesn't need you at all because whether or not you're dead or alive it won't even matter.

So this is me, saying what i've kept inside me all along.

You will never know how much you've hurt me. Emotionally and Mentally. I've been trying so hard. Till i'm on the verge of breaking down. The thing that hurts me the most is that you don't even treat me as something that has feelings.

Two and a half years i've waited. Patiently, because of what you've said to me 4 days after the day we met.

Why not we build up a solid friendship first? I really like you as a friend and i don't want to spoil it

And since i'm like that, i slowly built the friendship up. But like what you quoted from someone,

If there's only one person struggling to uphold the integrity of the relationship then he/she will sooner or later crumble under the sheer immense weight. This is what we call in crude terms gone fuck.

So how do you expect me to keep holding up this friendship when you don't even want to play the part of a friend?

I'm not angry, i'm not frustrated, i'm upset. I'm really disappointed that 2½ years of friendship had to come to this.

Metaphorically speaking, i've been "stabbed" by you so many times, till i've come to a point where i'm tired of removing the knives altogether.

The worst was when i discovered that giving you time to let go of your past actually made you think more about it and go running back into a fire you just came out of. It broke my heart. And there's no coming back from that. Knowing that i will never be significant in your eyes.

But if that's the way you want things to be like, then i can only say that it's been great knowing you. But anything beyond that, i guess i can never say...



Just had my meeting with my project partner today. Kinda lazy to go into details but lets just say it sucked big time. Since you like documenting stuff so much why not we just document the whole project for you instead of doing it? _|_.

3 weeks more and i get piled up with all this shit. fuck.



i worship this guy




it'll probably be like 2000000000000000 years before i can play like him.