I thought it wasn't wrong,
To hide from you,
Simple truth.

I was scared,
I felt it all along,
But it hurt to much for me, to share.

If only I, had been less blind.
I'd have someone to hold on to.
IF only I, could change your mind,
If only I had known, If only I had you...

Finally understand,
Why things have happened,
And how it all could go so wrong.

Will this pain ever end?
'cause I don't think I can carry on.

If only I, had been less blind.
I'd have someone to hold on to.
If only I, could change your mind,
If only I had known, If only I had you...

If only I had you...
If only I had you...

If only I, had been less blind.
I'd have someone to hold on to.
If only I, could have spoke my mind,
If only it were true, We could start brand-new
I know I'll make it through
If only I had you...
If only I had you...
If only I had you...

Just a song which i thought had meaning in it. Nothing much. Goes out to all those out there who can only stand at a corner and watch the very person they fell deeply in love for be taken away by other guys/girls.

First week of school was pretty ok, flew by quite fast in my opinion. Have some pics that i wanted to post up a long time ago but due to my laziness i failed to do so. So i shall post them up now. These were from some sort of art thingy me and dear saw while we were at esplanade after we had finished eating max brenner's and were walking back to suntec. Some of them were really nice, and the artist's themselves were no more than 12 years old. Amazing how creativity can inspire the mind at such a young age. if only this could be applied to every aspect of our lives so we wouldn't have that many 'pirated' programs. Governement always encourages us to stamp out piracy. I wonder why they don't even want to 'walk the road they built' if you get what i mean. Ok less talk. Here are the pics!

[EDIT] Ok there's a problem with my phone. Upload when i can get it to work zzz[/EDIT]

Well other than that don't think i have much to say anyway. Looks like it's just another few boring weeks of school. At least as a consolation i don't have that many examinable subjects. Something that i always looked forward to in poly xD. Will update again when inspiriation strikes. Until then, take care all~









"Society tends to stifle those with great minds"

I would have to agree with the above quote. As much as i would hate to admit it, our little island has as much creativity as the size of this country on the world map. And to back up my claim just pick up a remote control and turn on the television and my point has been proven.

Every single broadcast coming from Mediacorp has 'I have copied the idea of this show from another country because i'm am pathetic and worthless enough to not think up of my own program' written all over it.

Why people prefer to watch Korean or Japanese shows is mainly because the shows that they come up with are purely based on the intellect of the people there, not 'stolen' from some other show they saw while lazying on the couch at home thinking what to do with their lives and to fufill their job requirement of entertaining the public.

It tends to hit me hard in the faces sometimes that the government does what's best for THEM and not for us. They probably used the extra 2% tax they squeezed out out of forcefully to build a impossibly huge golf course in the Istana hidden away from public eyes so that they could have
fun while we slog out asses off daily from 9am-5pm with only an hour of resting time in between and a measly pay in order to provide bread on the table everyday for out families.

So sue me, but doesn't this prove my point otherwise? What has the governement done for us that has been USEFUL for us other than taking away a small portion of our yearly income every now and then? Hell, i wouldn't be surprised if 2 years down the road GST would increase to 10%. I could only imagine what kind of hell would break lose if such insanity would be carried out by Singapore's already ______(insert word here) governement.

Right, now that i'm done with dillusional ranting that is none of my concern whatsoever, time to carry on with my already dillusional life. =D

Just last Sunday i went to pay my respects to my late godfather who passed away a few weeks ago. Arrived at the temple where his ashes lay and did what i needed to do. Then walked aroudn the temple and saw my cousin staring at this apparently humongous cage that could have fit a orang utan but it was empty... that was until i looked at the floor of the cage. Here's a peek,


like WOW.


Here's a bird's eye view of it. Not that any bird would be able to view it without being eaten first -__-"


Mum was complaining how the body of the snake was already as big as a human thigh. Surprising enough i heard that they only feed it once a month. But it gets a full course meal. An entire chicken. Man would i like to be there suring feeding time.

We thought it was sleeping because my godmother told me that when it was awake it's eyelids would be red. BUT apparently IT WASN'T. Because in the first picture it's head was peeking out but after we were debating over what kind of snake it was and when we checked back at the cage THE HEAD DISAPPEARED.

I couldn't imagine what a snake like that would do if it escaped into the wild. Probably start a whole Anaconda movie or some shit like those typical movie where some overly mutated animal is on the loose and eats up everyone. This snake could eat a cow for pete's sake let alone a human.

Right, i've done enough talking for today. Let's end with a random picture of myself =x

That's my house in the background in case you wanted to know. It's small, but comfy =D



Two more weeks.. and the start of a new semester begins. Haven't been up to much during the school holidays. 6 weeks spent mostly at home, sometimes outside. Either watching a movie or playing LAN. TRIED to find a job but to no avail so i pretty much gave up during the third week of the holidays.

Don't really know what i'm trying to do with my life. Just yesterday i met up with Joel at Far East to shop for a pouch he wanted to buy to carry his PSP but couldn't find a suitable one. Anyway after walking the whole of Orchard road we decided to head home and Joel suggested crashing at my place cause he was on the verge of fainting form fatigue. So we sat at the void deck the block opposite my place thinking of a valid excuse which my mom sould believe. But we ended up having a heart to heart talk about stuff that revolved around our personal lives. It feels so good to have someone to talk to when you have lots of problems cooped up inside.

Anyway that aside, my mom allowed him to spend the night here and we spent half the night surfing Friendster looking at pictures of long lost friends wondering how they were. Then came across this girl that Joel liked who was from his class. Till today i still can't fathom why he doesn't want to ask her out or even at the very least spend time with her. But i guess different people would have different approaches to talk to a girl.

Did nothing much after that. Played DotA until 5am then slept till 3pm the next day(Well at least i did =x). Woke up, changed and headed to Dhoby Ghaut to play some LAN before heading our seperate ways.

Frankly speaking i enjoyed that heart-to-heart talk we had. He told me things about his personal life and i told him stuff about my personal life. I was offered suggestions and took them into consideration. Anyway i was feeling a little down so telling him what i was upset about pretty much lightened my burden.

Sometimes what we need isn't a little time alone, but just someone to talk to. It doesn't have to be your other half but just someone who would listen and approve when it's right and disagree when it's not. I consider myself lucky to have 2 of these guardian angels beside me. Cal and Joel, i don't know what my life would be like without the both of you. Probably would be a total wreakage if i didn't have you two to talk to. Therefore i dedicate this entry to both of you. These two may not be the people who can change your life, but they can spare that few seconds or minutes of their time to listen and offer advice when needed.And that's what i really need. Love you guys(Brotherly love please. -_-")

At the end of the day, it's the choices that we make that affect our everyday lives. If we sit back and hope that our lives will just go as planned then that's where nothing will happen at all. We are given the power to change our lives and live them the way we want to, not to think that everything has already been planned for us and to sit back and wait for stuff to happens to us.

If you think that keeping things to yourself will help then so be it. It's not as easy as that to just say that telling people your problems will not change anything. True it won't change anything. But the person whom you tell could be the one who offers you that bit of advice and moral support for YOU to make that change. Don't expect others to change your life for you. Get up and do it yourself. Like the saying goes: If you want something done, DO IT YOURSELF. If all you're going to do is just sit there and cry every night because you have so many problems and there's no one listening then it's about time you do something about it. Don't ask what, because only you know the answer to that. No one else can help you if you don't want to help yourself. Unless you do something about it, it's going to stay the way it is and things won't get any better for you.