After watching the show i learnt a few life lessons. It was one hell of a good show. I cried and laughed at the same time. And it's not those laughing where it's just a slight chuckle. Its really ROFLMAO. haha. When i watched the show i learnt that..

1)self-sacrifice does not always have its moments
2)beauty is skin deep
3)don't judge a book by it's cover
4)korean actresses are HOT =x

But overall it was a very nice show. Those who are into romance comedies, tis is a must watch despite the language barriers. But that's what subtitles are for right? haha.

After the movie went to meet Hyde and his girl. Wanted to have dinner together as two couples but she had to leave due to her exams being around the corner so we accompanied Hyde to send her off first. Then we proceeded to the upper floors to the food court to grab something to eat. Damn i ordered something i tad bit too expensive for my liking which ended up in my regret for ordering that dish. After our meal we had desert then headed to woodlands mrt to send dear home and here i am.

First week of school is already over and i still am in the holiday mood. Nothing that the lecturers say is going inside my brain and it feels that i'm attending school or the sake of attendance. haha. oh well as time goes by i'm sure i'll get into the academic mood. i hope. Lots of places to go after dear finishes her exams. AMK's new shopping centre just opened and dear wants me to accompany her to the carnival near her house. I wonder where i am going to get that much money since i only have a miserable $15 left in my wallet ater today's outing. =( Anyone care to donate money to me? Any amount above $10 will be greatly appreaciated and will be for a worthy cause. Of couse you won't know what that 'worthy cause' is now will you? *grins* Alrights off to DotA till the next morning wahahahah. xD



Haven't been blogging in AGES. Alright so here's what happened over the last few days.

I..

HAD AN OUTING WITH MY CLASSMATES
Went out with Calgary, Mas and Chen Yu. They wanted to watch a movie but had no idea what to watch so we met up frst at bugis at 7pm then walked around to eat,slack,talk etc etc until 9+ where we decided to head to PS to watch Shooter, a very nice movie with plenty of blood, violence,gore and of course your very spine thrilling suspense. I give it 5 stars. I suggest those that love suspense movies catch this one in a theatre near you. After the outing all of us were dead tired so we decided to go home. I'm still wondering how Calgary managed to reach home faster than me when he lives so much farther away form PS than i do. Hmmm.


BOUGHT NEW SHOES
Yes yes i finally got my new shoes. I bought them while waiting for Calgary,Mas an d Chen Yu on the day we had our outing. Was supposed to get it two days ago but the lazy side of me took over and decided to purchase the shoes when i was heading home. To my dismay the shop was aleady closed by the time i dragged my half dead ass back there. No doubt i was upset bt i let it pass. I still got it in the end anyway ^^

GOT MY TIMETABLE FOR NEXT SEMESTER IN TP
Timetables were released on 18th of April, i was partially disappointed that i got seperated from my class yet AGAIN. It's like every semester i'm losing either one or two of my good friends whose aquaintace i have just made. Previous two semesters ago i was quite close to Khairul. Then the following semester after that we had to split up so i lost touch with him. The last semester i got to know Hui Yee better only to find out just recently that she's not going to be in the same class as me again. I'm afraid next semester i'll lose Calgary =( . I don't want to be all alone by myself in a total cass of strangers. I don't want to make friends with people whom i will only know for one or two semesters only to lose them the next. It feels horrible. Other than that my timetable should be alight except for Tuesdays where i have to stay till 7pm ZOMFGWTFLJKNNCCB. Oops =x

AM FACING PROBLEMS IN MY RELATIONSHIP AGAIN
Doesn't the sub heading say it all. I've just got one message for you. You're going back to the way you used to be, slowly, bit by bit. I already told you it's going to be like this but you just were too bent on me giving you another chance to even listen. I told you you're going to change for 1-2 weeks then go back to the way you were. I was really prepared to think you were going to change until what happened yesterday. Now i've lost all my mood to even talk or see you. I just want to be alone for awhile. Just by myself. If you think that change is too difficult for you then i suggest we be friends. That would be so much better and we could have so much lesser stress and do whatever we want without having any restaints. If all we're bringing to each other is more misery than happiness i will have no chioce but to leave for good for the sake of both our happiness.

MISS SOME OF THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE
Yup, its only natural that you will tend to miss a person after not seeing them for some time. Let's go down my list shall we?(NOT IN ANY ORDER SO DON'T GET JEALOUS xD)
1)Weina Jie(I'm sorry =( please forgive me)
2)Melswee(Haven't seen this crazy bitch in awhile rofl)
3)Mummy(Only talk to her in msn but really haven't seen her in a looooong time)
4)Joel(Damn i miss hanging out with him. The times in secondary school cannot compare to those in poly. Sigh)
5)My poly classmates(haha it's been almost 2 months what do you think?)
6)My secondary school class 4E4(Memories that can't fade away. I will always remeber them deep within the recesses of my heart ^^)

Yup so that's about it. Nothing much other than that. School's starting next week. Hope everything goes smoothly for me this semester. Wish me luck ><



I'm blogging at Ash's house and currently in the midst of a DotA game. Haha. Decided to stay over at his house so we could reformat his com but apparently his com could not support the CD so we have to bring it to a shop the next morning. And i just died. Haha. Hope i have enough energy for the outing tomorrow. Well i shall stop here. Blog more tomorrow. See ya~



Just the previous night, i had a very strange dream. Strangely enough, it was one of the dreams that i could make out vividly. They said that dreams come true. But this one made no sense at all. The chances of it happening was actually one to a million. Still, i felt extremely happy within the duration of the dream.But how could i even have a dream like that even though i wasn't even thikning of that particular person in that particlar time. Really puzzling.Would this dream ever come true? We shall see.

Anyway moving on, Clan Kpg outing is this coming Friday. Lets hope that those who are supposed to turn up actually turn up. But one of my good friends whom i met in DotA has gone to attend National Service. I suddenly feel so lonely without him because he's usually the one who plays DotA with me most of the time and other games as well. Frankly speaking he's the life of the party. I will miss him, for the next two weeks until he is able to book out for weekends. A toast to you, Hyde_faith. ^^

School Term is around the corner. Kind of looking forward to it cause i miss school and because of my holidays my parents have NOT been giving me $$$$$$ thus making me super ultra POOR. I should have found a job but i was too lazy to do so. Oh well since school is starting i shall not bother. Or perhaps when school reopens i might get a weekend job. One that can kill my time during weekends so i don't have to rot at home doing nothing.

Well that's about what i gotta say. Happy birthday to Melswee. U still can't watch M18 shows ahahahahahahah. I'm outta here.

Rot Rot Rot Rot Rot~~



Just got back from dinner with Mum at Bishan. Went there to have my haircut as well. Finally i don't have to feel irritated with my hair and wish that i was bald instead. BU it does make me look wierd to have short hair all of a sudden. haha. Those who wanna see what i look like ask me out okay? Well that's all i gotta say. I'm outta here. DotA time!! ^^V



I just reached home from an overnight LAN session with my clan members. That being only 4 of us from the clan actually staying. It was truly pathetic i tell you. I never seen a worser turnout for a clan outing. And to think that the team is actually having thoughts of participating in the World Cyber Games(WCG). Plenty of complications arose concerning the establishment of our 'home base' or in more technical terms a place for us to conduct training sessions to train up. Even though i'm a nobody to the members of this clan i find it compelling against my nature not to help out even though i stand a very little chance of actually being part of the WCG team. Issues concerning clan members have to be discussed and it has to be made compulsory that players participating in the WCG come for training sessions. If not, how would the team actually train up their communication skills and at the same time work on their teamwork? If this continues i think they should just abolish all thoughts of even getting through the preliminaries.

Thats about it for my clan. Now to focus more on the outing. It's time to get some steam off my chest. What really pissed me off was my chief's girlfriend. Even though i've already broken up with my girlfriend, i thank god for blessing me with a girl who wasn't like her. She thinks that the whole world actually owes her a living. So what if people are laughing at you, it's none of your busniess even if they weren't laughing at you. But you had to think otherwise and ended up scolding the three of them even though you just met two of them. Even if your boyfriend didn't feel embarrassed i would feel the exact same way. I don't understand how could you just create a scene in public and make 6 guys wait for you to finish crying. What the fuck do we owe you? NOTHING. Get this, we owe you N.O.T.H.I.N.G . But we waited for the sake of not wanting to have any bad blood within the clan.

Moving on to the match later on, you think that just because you order people not to kill you , you think they won't? I can't stand your stuck up attitude. You tell people not to kill you and yet you keep going around killing people whom you told not to kill you instead. Think about it.Is it fair? And that's not all. Do you even have the basic manners to say a simple word of 'EXCUSE ME' when people are having a discussion? You just simply barge in on the conversation as if we were supposed to include you. This is the worst part yet, you go to a LAN shop to play a game that can be played AT HOME. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?! You wanna play a game that you can play at home then why bother even coming all the way out here and wasting your poor boyrfriend's money which he has worked hard just for you to play a game you can play at home?! Seriously we had our REASONS for going there which was to TRAIN. You went there with only one reason; to spend your time playing a stupid online game which can be played at home. You can't even take it when your boyfriend made a casual remark about your skills. Seriously i wouldn't take it lying down that easily as he did. Can't you tell it was just a god damn fucking joke?! Nooooo, you had to throw another tandrum and make everyone pissed off. 70% of this entire outing was ruined thanks to you. You can be VERY SURE the next time there is an outing I won't be there if you're going. Cause you would just ruin everything for the entire group. So thanks alot, you did a SUPERB job or runing the outing for us.

Anyway on my part i'm still thinking, yup.



I'm lost. I just don't know what to do. I'm really feeling down in the dumps right now. Part of me just feels like killing myself, the other just wants to sit around and wait for a miracle to happen. The only person whom i could confide in and tell anything to just gave me the scolding of a lifetime. I don't understand what is so wrong about giving others another chance to prove their worth. It's the same as jailed criminals. After they're released its the same as giving them another chance to start anew right? So whats wrong with giving someone else that one chance to prove themselves. I don't understand why you have to scream and shout at me when all i did was ask you for a piece of advice. What did i do wrong? I just needed someone to talk to and instead i got shouted at and degraded as if i were but a speck of dust or dirt on the floor. It's not as though i was 100% sure of giving her that chance. I just needed someone to confirm my doubts. But what the hell did i do wrong by asking you that question? Did i commit an offense? Did i break the law? Then why the fuck was i shouted at for no apparent reason? You're making it sound as though i'm the one at fault, as if this whole entire mess is to be fully blamed on me and no one else? WHY? why must you do this to me? Have i not been tortured enough by this entire ordeal that you have to add salt to the wound?

I always thought you would be there for me, to give me advice and to guide me through. But i was wrong. True, i need to come to my senses. But shouting at me is no different than talking to me nicely. Is it that difficult? Sigh. Just let me die why don't you since you don't really care anymore.



I just got my supplementary paper results!! and i passed! woots! alright looks like i'm going to be seeing my class again next semester. Haha, i for one couldn't be any happier. Well that's all i gotta say. I'm a happy person~~ ^^



Haven't been having sufficient rest over the past few days. Just yesterday i was out of the house until the next morning with my DotA clan training overnight. Was so tired when i got home that i took a shower and fell onto the bed and slept for 5 hours straight. Was supposed to go and have a hair cut and change my phone today but apparently mum had to send a friend off at the airport so the plans were cancelled. Then played DotA until 5am in the morning and fell asleep for about 6 hours before heading to PS to meet Eileen. Long time since i saw her. She's changed alot. Didn't do much with her, just ate at macs then went to walk around PS and went hoe after that. I was so damn tired that i came home and took a nap at 6.30 which is usually what i don't do.

Recently, ash has been having some problems with his girlfriend. After talking to him both of us realise that we are both encountering the exact same problem. And we both have the same weakness, we have soft spots. It's like we will feel guilty when we do something bad to another person. I don't know, i don't really have much to say about my relationship anymore. It's over. But the feeling of loneliness of sometimes there. I guess i've grown accustomed to having her around me. Oh well, i'll learn to get used to it.

Should i?
Maybe.. just maybe